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Sometimes you think the Lord has broken your heart enough for the people that He has called you to love. Sometimes you walk into something that you weren't prepared for and the Holy Spirit stops you to say, "I am the Lord your God, there is more love than you could ever imagine in Me for these people".  
   I was going down to the Ravine with the baby feeders and each month the children are weighed to make sure they are gaining weight and are healthy. Some of the babies to not like to sit on the scale, some of them are way to small to put on the scale. So the method that we use it having the mother and baby on the scale together and then she passes her baby to a friend and just she weighed. Its a method of subtracting to that we can make weighing the babies less hectic.
      The mother with a very young baby stepped on the scale. She was about 5'8, and looked thin but not at a scary weight. She looked like most of the women in the Ravine. She passed her baby to a friend, and stepped back on the scale. It read 84 pounds. I was thinking about which baby would be next when God showed me the number on the scale. I swallowed hard. I looked again. She was tall, she didn't look sickly thin.
    It was in that moment you realize again that the Lord is never done moving your heart for His people. In a country where the death rate is around 56 years old, I realized how much more the Lord loves these people than I ever could.
    As my heart moved in my chest I held back tears; there was nothing I could do that was within my power for this woman. She is like all the other mothers in the Ravine. But I looked at her young baby that is in the CLS feeding program and I knew that for her, giving her son food and an education would be something. Giving her son the chance to find Jesus would be the greatest thing in all the world. The Ravine church that was started right by where she lives, because one of our staff felt led to have a Ravine church where all can come no matter what clothes they have.
   Just when you think you can understand the love Jesus has for you and the world he removes you from it, and opens your eyes just a little wider.